BSOD

BSOD is abbreviation for Blue screen of death. anyone who ever used Windows OS knows this. Its a blue screen which pops out when you are doing some thing very critical. Result is very simple. A stack dump which is of no use and usefull data loss. I suffer from some memory problem. I will suddenly forget my name, passwords, PIN number of my ATM card. Suddenly. This second I know and the next second my face is blank. I will leave keys in locks. There are currency notes in my pcokets and who so ever washes my clothes will find those. I will forget to set reminders and even if I set I set I will forget why I set those reminders. This problem is same like BSOD. It will happen wen it shud not. At my place this is the normal conversation, Bhabhi G, "Montu bring me a water bottle, oh leave it I will get myself. I dont trust you." Bhaiyya G, "Monty yaar, can u get me these docs photocopied today. Dont worry I will call you and remind you. I also dont trust you." Maasi G, "Son, Stand here. and keep doing what I tell you. I dont trust you. You can spoil things." And Nitin, he just used to pull hairs He can not kill me or he must have killed me. I have left my keys in the scooter or bike n times. Wen I forget some thing all I remember I am forgeting something but what? I doubt myself. I started writing. Diary. But I lost my diary. Above all. I will not remeber where I just put my keys. After that I told my self, "Dude U r useless." Everyone at my home is amazed, "How do I manage a company?" I was not like that. I cud easily tell replacements for AC 187/188 Transistors, cud draw circuits without using datasheet. I knew what was CD4017 chip will do if I altered the clock pulse generated by NE555 circuit. But there are some things which I am still not able to forget even if I try hard. Why? I guess theres is a reason to this. Our brain is made of 2 parts Concious and Subconcious. Its the subconcious part that keeps ur heart beat giong on. Things that enter your subconcious dont get out of ur brain. There is a brain cell known as neurons or nerve cells. We have got millions of these neurons. They process everything in our brain. I guess some thing has entered my subconcious mind and it creates some kernel problem. It produces stack dump, I know am forgetting something, useless. But not the thing I forgot, useful data. This is not Alzheimer's desease. In Alzheimer's you even forget your past. I dont forget but temporarily loose some useful information. I call this BSOD. I tried to study patterns and found some thing that Bhabhi g confirmed. I forget things which dont appeal me. Its not more than carelessness. But I will never forget my Name or PIN no. Never. The logic Bhaabhi G gave has got some weight. But I do not totally agree with her. I will stress myself and try to remind myself what I am forgetting but till the time OS reboots. The problem creates funny situations mostly. Like this joke on me. Chetan is going with his newly wed wife. BSOD attacks and he asks her wife in this way,"Excuse me sister, I have seen you somewhere. Can you introduce yourself?" But once I lost my sister's eaxmination hall admission card ticket 2 days ahead of her exam. That was really bad. And this happend just 5 years back. My dad has used every possible abuse he knew. Only thing left was thrashing. Still the problem is there. I want to forget some thing and its haunting me for last many days. Guess a simple newyear wish can be haunting.